I haven’t written much lately. “Life” and its vicissitudes have kept me otherwise occupied, distracted, or simply unable.
Why? Well, to begin with, I have suffered from severe anxiety since I was born. Going through 2 foster family mothers before ending up with the third who kept me—all in the first six months of my life—most likely had something to do with that. Then depression reared its ugly head in my early 30’s, which I happily “self-medicated” with alcohol, especially after being separated from my children due to divorce back in 1995, and then followed closely by a rocky second re-bound marriage, on-again-off-again over 10 years. My depression has since lessened but the taste for my self-prescribed medication has not.
Thanks to “real” medication and intensive therapy, I am seeing light at the end of the tunnel. In fact, I am seeing that there actually IS light at the end of that tunnel! While waiting for the clouds to clear, then, I have purposefully chosen not to write, comment, opinion-ate or dare even beer-induced pontificate.
In the meantime, I’m taking life just “one day at a time”. That’s an “AA” (Alcoholics Anonymous) expression. I attended AA off and on for a few years. Great organization. I learned a lot about alcohol addiction and LIFE at AA….and THAT is what this site is all about; discovering and sharing things about life with YOU, with the hope that we ALL might benefit and improve the quality of our individual lives, the lives of our loved ones and perhaps even…the world. I’m a die-hard optimist.
God willing, see you soon, when the sky is clear.
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Congratulations Tim on taking this very important step in publicly acknowledging your struggle against alcohol addiction. Your honesty and courage, and your determination to live authentically will carry you towards your goal of escaping the life limiting effects of alcohol misuse. Through the sharing of your personal journey you are also sharing a message of compassion, acceptance, and love for self and others. I hope that the ripples of hope and healing generated by your message will travel far and wide. Keep up the hard work of living consciously “one day at a time” and the good work of sharing your unique journey with others.